黑色漩渦

世界上有一部分的人生活在漩渦裡，我也是屬於那一部分的人.我的漩渦是由一些不好的行為、壞習慣，以及內心的黑暗面所組成。它總是讓我無法自拔的陷入其中。在漩渦裡有好多的悔恨、好多的疑惑。它像是罪惡的深淵、渾沌的黑洞。一旦陷入就很難從它設下的迷宮中走出。旁人無法幫助你指點迷津，因為關鍵是你的心；萬惡的起頭也是光明的指引。漩渦是她創造出來的，只有牠知道如何化解。當然，他也有可能什麼都不知道。它是個謎？

在某些時刻，我或許能窺見漩渦，裡面充滿了失望、傷心、絕望、孤獨…像是潘朵拉的盒子一樣。裡面是否有希望我不知道。心臟有兩半，它存在在我的右半側；它原本的設計是為了要淨化心靈，像是一個傾吐的空間，接收我所有負面的情緒想法及行為。淨化後原本是因該要像肥料一樣灌溉並且給予我力量，但是我卻餵它吃了太多的垃圾食物，它再也無法負荷它所能承受的。於是淨化的海洋中竟產生了黑色漩渦並且以驚人的速度吞食掉左半側的綠地。漩渦快速的滋長擴大，從內心擴大到腦子。我的身體已經由黑色漩渦主宰。

它失去控制快速旋轉，扭曲變形成一個陌生人。我已經不是原來的我了；我住在一個陌生的冰冷軀殼裡，不能思考、不能感覺。還好左撇子的我右腦發達，它從黑暗之中發出渴望的聲音，加上外在的因素，因而促使改變。「大家都在改變,我也覺得不一樣了。」 時間久了全身的細胞、心靈的認知也和漩渦合而唯一，它不再是黑暗漩渦了。這一段時間，它化作蠶繭般縛住我全身，使我成長化作一隻黑色蝴蝶。

After all you put me through
You’d think I’d despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn’t trust
Called your bluff, time is up
’Cause I’ve had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
’Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
’Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do
I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

’Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you’re going around
Playing the victim now
But don’t, even begin
Feeling I’m the one to blame
’Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won’t work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it’s over
’Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

’Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in dnial
But in the end you’ll see
YOU-WON’T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain’t goin’ stop
There is no turning back
I’ve had enough

’Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

’Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter