Lost self

I have been struggling because I don’t know what course to follow!
I never give up my ideal, but the matter until today, I can’t tell my ideal in the end is what to do exactly?
I still can not escape as the same age who lost traced finally .how about myself ? how up to now i still don’t understand its own direction?
I know that I have been thinking: I would like to be stronger than others, I want to lead a remarkable life, but how I want to do, how can i do?

我一直在挣扎着，因为我还不知道该何去何从！
我从来不放弃我的理想，但是，事至今日，我却说不清我的理想到底是什么，确切到该做什么？我终于还是逃不过和同龄人一样的迷茫，究尽我是怎么了，怎么到现在还弄不明白自己的方向呢？我一直知道我的想法：我要比别人强，我要过上非凡的生活，可是，我要怎么做，怎么做？