something from the inside

Inside me.
I want to change.
Everything in my life.
I want to scream.
I want to kill.
I want to forgive.
I want to set myself free.
From burdens.
From all the stupid fucking restrictions.
Inside me.
Im so tired of all the pointless hope and thoughts.
Once I use my strength, things all fall apart.
I want to hold onto something that belongs to me.
Everything so fragile.
Even i just touch them with my finger tips.
All fall apart.
Inside me.
I just want to rebel.
I want to feel the deviant taste .
I want todo wrong things.
Reality brings me back to this boring solid ground.
I can never yell out how much I want to be free.
Maybe Im chicken shit.
Maybe I am afraid to be happy and accepting.
Maybe I am weak and sad.
Maybe I was never happy.
Maybe I was born a rebel.
Who will know
Who will ever know.
This heart inside of me.
WHo will...

Inside me.
Thoughts can be interpretated in so many different ways.
Please dont try to understand me.
You will never get me.