Just something in my mind

Um, wat should i say~

suddenly i feel like post something in this blog

maybe i have nothing else to do

and i have something in my mind that i want to say to someone

and its usually u who will listen to watever i say

where should i start

ok, firstly i dont know how to edit the last post so i cant really continue like wat i said before

i have been in bangkok for a few days

dooing nothing much, just stay in the room if there is nothing happening

i just watch tv, go online, play game and eat

sometime my sis take me out to eat and go out to look around in places

its not like i cannot go out with myself but i just dont have anyone to go and its also quite far for a place i want to go like shopping mall

and plus the traffic jam and air pollution here

i only can take the bus and i dont get to know the route and directions yet cuz there are so many here

i am planning to buy dvds and watch movie here

and may be buy something too

apart from that i have no plan here

the headache returns again and i dont know why

may be stress

may be i need to exercise more

but it come every afternoon and disappear in the evening

i wish i dont have it when my uni start

cuz i cant to anything when the headache happen

another thing...

i dont know why

may be i feel like i hate my own memory sometimes

how things start to appear in my mind again

i start to dream again about things i dont want to know

and i feel strong hate towards something that brings memory

may be cuz they give me nothing but strong pain that i cant stop feeling before

and i cry so much before cuz those things

may be thats why i really hate it

and may be i have it here

maybe i am feeling hate now cuz something in the tv

something that reminding me about something i dont like

i feel like im being so moody

evern small things

may be i am lacking something

i wish everything i want

become like wat i want

i wish people change to become better

and become the one i want them to be like too

i am not saying u have to be like wat i expect u to be

but just enough to understand me

and make me be with u peacefully

and no more memory disturb me...

something...tell me i will tell u more later