2009-02-16 20:29:29sa*

Would You MARRY Me?!?!

我想這是一件非常矛盾的事,對如此愛好自由、旅行的我而言,在我心裡一直期盼我能跟某個人相守一輩子、擁有一個很完美的家庭生活。


我愛旅行,我愛好自由,我喜歡認識新朋友跟新鮮的事物,我喜歡無拘無束的沒有人管我;可是,我喜歡被照顧也喜歡照顧別人,我喜歡有人可以讓我抱著安穩的睡著,我喜歡傷心難過生氣的時候,有一個人會放下手邊的事情,靜靜的聽我訴說,我喜歡有一個人可以跟我分享生活裡的大事小事,我想要跟我愛的人有一個可愛的小寶貝,然後我們可以全家出去玩。


很矛盾,不是嗎?


大概是因為最近身邊跟自己同年齡的朋友一個一個開始結婚,去年更是接了許多年紀相仿的朋友許多喜帖,可是,要遇到一個能讓自己完全相信、放心,並且確定對方也是跟自己心意相同的人,真的不是一件很簡單的事。


結婚…我不是沒有想過,不是沒有期待過。


只是,從今以後,我會慢慢的偏向「對自己好一點吧!」的念頭,好好的愛自己,畢竟這是最重要的事情。


我想,過去的我一定都是不夠愛自己,才會導致那些不幸跟悲傷。



Ireckon it's very contradictory. I love traveling, I love freedom. Butin my heart, I really wanna be with someone whole my life. Yeah, justonly one person who I love him truly and so does he.


Ilike meeting new friends and fresh things. I don't want anyone try tocontrol me. But I like to look after someone and so does he. I wannaI could fall asleep with someone cuddling. I wish someone will dropeverything out and listen to me when I am sad. I wanna shareeverything in life to somebody who I loved. I wanna have a littlecute baby with someone who I loved with whole my heart and so doeshe.


It'svery contradictory, isn't it?


Ithought about these maybe just because some of my friends who aresame ages with me are going to get marry. It's very hard to findsomeone who can let you trust and love very deeply. I reckonsometimes it needs some courage and impulses to get marry.


Anyway,I should love myself more and this is the most important thing.



p。s

祝福阿彪、蚯蚓,你們一定可以幸福的,就像我相信我自己也可以幸福一般。

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Stella 2009-04-23 07:24:16

看到這篇文章的矛盾和心情,就好像看見這幾年的自己,從開始愛人被愛,受傷流淚\\\,然後懂得愛是什麼之後才開始愛自己的自己,然後開始自由的飛自由的無拘束的做想做的事,內心曾經的渴望卻逐漸淡去...